There have been so many times I wanted to give up  

• • • • • • My mom’s unexpected death
          • My separation, then divorce
          • My homeless eight months with a 6 year child
          • Two years without a job
          • Poverty-stricken enough to steal toilet tissue

Those are just a few, but there have been plenty more. When I reflect, I didn’t think I would make it through those times. I couldn’t see a way out and didn’t know if I would ever see the other side of each situation. However, even when I wanted to give up, God preserved me! His preordained purpose for my life prevailed over every dark, low moment.  

And now, with the complexity of COVID-19 infected my daily routines. I feel overwhelmed, anxious and out of control. Lying awake at night with tears streaming down my face, I ponder, ‘Will life ever be normal again’, ‘why is this happening’, ‘will I survive’, ‘when will it end.’ I ask the questions that most Christians wouldn’t dare utter, for the fear of being perceived without faith in God. Yet, I find comfort because God already knows my weaknesses and deficiencies. He’s seen me at my worst and yet, He enabled me to overcome every dismal situation. So even though my thoughts and feelings are all over the place, I trust Him. I have prior experience in His ability to sustained me through every conundrum I could ever face.   

There were so many times I wanted to give up, but purpose prevail. Through every chaotic moment, hardship and perplexity, GOD PRESERVED ME! God’s purpose prevailed over my fears, fatigue and famine.  And one day, soon, I’ll reflect on this time of COVID-19 and witness God’s prevailing purpose on my life.  

Take a stand with me and let’s refuse to define our journeys by the low and dark parts, but rather by the Prevailing God of our lives! Even in this, God’s process and purpose is at work. He will preserve what He put inside of us and His Purpose will Prevail. Continue to ask those questions, but always remember there is a promise of victory in Isaiah 43!